||[Jun. 3rd, 2005|07:13 pm]
I'm SO FUCKING PISSED. I want to murder someone. |
I just fucking walked, I fucking POWERWALKED to get to the bus that leaves at 12:20. I only had less than ten minutes to get there and this fuckn house is freaking country away from the bustop. So i get to the bustop, I'm out of breath I feel like i'm gonna throw up. I sit down, I'm waiting for about three minutes. I look up, THE FUCKING BUS DRIVES BY! It doesnt stop for me. WTF WTF. I just walked all the way up to the bustop ONTIME, mind you, ONLY FOR IT TO FUCKING DRIVE BY ME. So then I had to walk ALL THE WAY BACK HOME. I'm so angry. I'm so angry. You can never rely on anyone for any fucking thing. This is how its gonna be for me. Its funny because I bend my fucking back for people and go out of MY WAY to do something for them and if I ever need anything it's always some kind of hassle. God hates me. This shit always happens. I fucking hate people. Don't speak to me for a couple of days.
I could be driving by now. I could have a job by now. I could be at some other school by now. I could be HAPPY by now. Could, being the operative word. And whyyyy this choice of word? I live in house of fucking Natzis and selfish idiots. It's not right...I swear they'll regret this.