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[07 Jul 2008|01:29pm] |
I've taken it for the first time in February and then most recently in May. I really hated having to take it that second time, but it was an actual needed so...
This Sunday we barely had unprotected sex and he pulled out, but it was either in the knick of time or not(because he came right as he pulled out). He can't tell and I can't. I really don't want to get the pill because I know my body and I'm at least 95% sure
I know EC shouldn't be abused and used so frequently, but how bad is it to your body to use it a few months apart? I mean this would be using 3x within less than a 6 month period. I want to pass on this one, but I'd like to know for future ref.
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[08 Jan 2008|07:15am] |
Has it really been a month since I last wrote in here? I switch off between this and xanga, sooooo I'm trying to do this daily thing. Life is still shitty, but on the bright side I got my braces off. So I can really start to focus on myself now.
We're still not friends. I don't have many friends.
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[25 Nov 2007|12:56am] |
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I want to die or something. I'm falling apart at the seems. I wish I had someone to talk to. I hate that he can do this to me. Whyyyyyyy.
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[19 Nov 2007|11:40pm] |
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The deterioration of our friendship has begun. I can say right now, I'm fine with it. I'm going to wait 2 weeks until I speak to him again and that's only because I'm getting my money back.
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[19 Nov 2007|01:21am] |
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Depressed. Complacent. I dunno which is worse.
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[15 Nov 2007|11:37am] |
So tomorrow will be a month broken up.
*sigh*
I keep blaming myself and I realized I wasn't committed to him, maybe I gave up too easily, and let him go without having patience. And yes there are things I will do better next time, but I still can't forget I was always patient with him, but there were just things he did to me that were unacceptable.
Gahhhhh I miss the fun we always had. We ALWAYS had fun. Fuck...
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[14 Nov 2007|02:08am] |
It doesn't get any easier does it.
I still havent updated about the Jay Z concert, but I dnno if it's worth it anymore. I'm so bummed.
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[06 Nov 2007|11:57pm] |
Wow, this guy is a fucking jerkoff.
I'm on the verge of hating him and I have to be with him all day on Friday.
THIS should be interesting...
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| Pros & Cons |
[31 Oct 2007|01:47pm] |
I made a list. Just as expected, the cons outweigh the pros hilariously. But then I look at the pros list and I question, 'aren't those the things I want in a man?!'
I'm becoming more and more bitter about him as the days go by. He can make it seem like a huge waste of time or a huge loss and I hate that he does this to me.
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[29 Oct 2007|08:43pm] |
I dunno how Saturday ended up being so PERFECT.
We were so close to getting back together and then Sunday was so weird and terrible. I'm fucking over this dude.
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| Horny. |
[23 Oct 2007|07:03pm] |
I am.
I'm remembering all the good times we had.
I try to remember the reason why we don't work though.
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| things are moving along... |
[22 Oct 2007|07:52pm] |
Last night I was attending a mutual friend's bday party and it was so weird not being next to him or up on him at a party. I hid it so well, but I wanted to be with him or close to him so bad. That ass almost didnt hug me goodbye either. Anyways, I've been up to my wit's end with this boy and I really don't have time to stress about it. I just wanted to know if he loved me or not. I wanted to hear that he didn't, that's all I needed. It would've hurt, but I needed to hear it to get over it.
He said "I dunno" though. With a smile.
He does.
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[21 Oct 2007|04:06pm] |
And now he won't talk to me. He's not responding to the text I sent him last night and he's not IMing me. There's no way in hell I'm callin... I'm hurting so much. I'll never know if he's hurt because he never opens up to me. Seeing him tonight will be such a blower. I'm so fucking depressed.
Damnit... I'm going to get so fucking drunk. Fuck it all.
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| Back on the LJ |
[21 Oct 2007|01:03am] |
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I will devote this to my daily ramblings now. Too many thoughts and too lazy/too poor to see a therapist.
I am so fucking confused about my ex right now. I know this is normal, but god damn... it is a double-edge sword. I know we're perfect for one another, but we are absolutely not perfect candidates for a relationship. Isn't that weird!? I don't want a relationship with him, unless he proves to me he can handle that responsibility and concern. It's not a complicated concept, but he is a typical guy and fucks it up. Did I mention he was one of my best friends? I was worried we wouldn't be the same bff's we were, but it's gradually going back to normal. We seem to have unspoken resentment toward each other. We bicker even as friends. It must bother him, but it doesn't bother me. I feel like it keeps us close. Like I said I do not want a relationship with him at this point, but god damnit.... I want him. Sex isn't that important to me. That's not what I want or need. I just need him. It makes no sense, but I guess I'm not ready to let him go.
He'll never openly say it, but I know he loves me.
And I still love him.
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[03 Jun 2005|07:13pm] |
I'm SO FUCKING PISSED. I want to murder someone.
I just fucking walked, I fucking POWERWALKED to get to the bus that leaves at 12:20. I only had less than ten minutes to get there and this fuckn house is freaking country away from the bustop. So i get to the bustop, I'm out of breath I feel like i'm gonna throw up. I sit down, I'm waiting for about three minutes. I look up, THE FUCKING BUS DRIVES BY! It doesnt stop for me. WTF WTF. I just walked all the way up to the bustop ONTIME, mind you, ONLY FOR IT TO FUCKING DRIVE BY ME. So then I had to walk ALL THE WAY BACK HOME. I'm so angry. I'm so angry. You can never rely on anyone for any fucking thing. This is how its gonna be for me. Its funny because I bend my fucking back for people and go out of MY WAY to do something for them and if I ever need anything it's always some kind of hassle. God hates me. This shit always happens. I fucking hate people. Don't speak to me for a couple of days.
I could be driving by now. I could have a job by now. I could be at some other school by now. I could be HAPPY by now. Could, being the operative word. And whyyyy this choice of word? I live in house of fucking Natzis and selfish idiots. It's not right...I swear they'll regret this.
THUGLIFE!
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[08 May 2005|07:26pm] |
LOL!
Did I tell you that the guy that I really, truly liked (who's not even cute) had the nerve to announce to me that he's going out with this girl that we know.
Seriously life is just an assfucker right now.
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[16 Mar 2005|10:18pm] |
So I've always thought of myself being very immature. I like to think I have a boy's mentality. It's thrue though.... Anyways, I'm surpised because I find myself becoming more open and more mature about things. I found myself feeling comfortable with talking about things with guys. Nomrally I'm not into that mushy mushy shit, but I feel like I'm ready for it now. So I'm very very...compatible with this guy I dunno. We mesh very well and I dunno he makes me real happy and makes me laugh alot. makes me feel stupid, but its cool. I can make him laugh too and that's important to me.
The thing is as much as I think we'd work together, to outsiders we are very... *different* Polar opposites and it'd just look weird as a couple. I thnk that if we were to get together, society judgements would tear us apart. That sucks.
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[30 Jun 2004|11:40am] |
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Farewell - Spiderman score (I'm such a fangirl lol) |
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Saw it.
Last night.
Midnite showing, actually.
Simply the best motherfucking movie, you've seen in along time.
Spideyfans will ADORE this.
Amazing.
Amazing.
It will blow you away.
So damn good.
Beautiful.
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The song that's playing in my head is appropriate for my mood.
I'm SOOOOOo anxious!!
Why??
Because!!
In a few minutes(maybe thirty lol)....I'll be done with CHAPTER FOUR of WBGTDWT. Oh my lordy. This is a roadblock chapter that I've been stuck on for MONTHS. I'm somewhat of a perfectionist, so i wanted to present this chapter as perfectly as possible. Well up to a point where I was completely satisfied. And I'm pretty proud of it, but still know it can be better. At this point I'm through thoough, cuz once I'm done with this chapter i can finish up the rest of the story in no time. Yessssss!!
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[26 Jun 2004|11:52pm] |
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Wowwy. Look who came out of hiding.
If LJ sucks as much as it does, it will delete this entry...and i will never come back. *hiss*
( Umm, here! )
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